Cheeerios :D

I say.

Fri, 11 Jul 2008 07:58:26 GMT

A journal has lost its meanings and purpose of it.
Cant bear to delete it.
But goodbye lj.

No one just can be trusted.

Everything's okay.

Thu, 10 Jul 2008 13:10:57 GMT

If i had the courage to. I would.
Oh god, there's just that something missing in my life.
& i've yet to know what.

Spare me from all the problems.
All is said and done. What more, what more?
I dont bear any grudges.
I'm not taking any sides. This matter is closed.
Its misunderstanding on my part perhaps, as i said.
Please dont go back into it. Cause i've forgotten all about it.
You're still that friend of mine. :)

I'm not the kind who make much effort to show how much my friendships mean to me.
But believe me, i really love every single one of you who's part of my life.
Even if there was resentment at times,
i know those friendships dont mean that little for resentment to overcome it.
Everyone definitely have their nice side.

/No one is perfect, no one. So bear in mind, everyone have their faults and adverse side. Its not easy to bear those adverseness. No one is never hypocritical. Afterall, we're all humans and that's our natural fault. But there is a rose in everyone. Try looking at the rose instead of the thorns. Its not a fault to bear grudges, its human's nature and its most likely to happen. But at the end of the day, remember to forgive and forget. Why is all these hatred going around? Life would be more peaceful without the word 'hate' isnt it.

Look at whats happening in other parts of the world. We are too protected and blessed, we do not feel it, the pain, the sufferings, emotionally and physically. We are not contented with what we have. We tend to not count our blessings. All those suffering are crying out for their loved ones. We? We often have nothing to do and start all the conflicts around us. Nothing to do that we sometimes see ourselves crying to see others suffer in a sadistic manner. I guess cherishing what we have now is the best. Before its too late... No one knows what will happen in a second/minute/hours/days/years. I'm saying this in general. Cause i see this in myself too. I hope i wont contradict this. But just do remind ourselves of others who are suffering while we are here hoping to see others suffer. We often want to take revenge for injustice done towards us. But think again, what are the benefits of it? The deepest answer, its nothing. We get nothing out of it. Only causing others more hurt. And seeing ourselves doing evil deeds. It just reflects on how sadistic we, humans are. We should be grateful enough to have such a life. Many of us tend to just take it for granted. A roof under our heads is enough a blessing. Everyone appears in our lives for a purpose, either good/bad. Thats when we learn alot and are experienced. Lead life happily. :)

The world's ~~upside down.~~

& to keep me from falling apart.

Wed, 09 Jul 2008 12:36:04 GMT

Chinese lesson today, came upon a textbook page where cousin wrote something.
Ofcourse it wasnt that bold line of black in the book.
Sensored* Sigh. How i hope too. Hahah.

Back to reality, no more chinese lessons with current teacher.
Two students are sent for lessons with another teacher.
& one of them is me, expected. HAHA. with steph too.
Welll, i guess it explains. My chinese is horrendous,very!

I love you vic anyway :D

/now i see how fragile the relations with people in life are. it hit me when vic said we dont seem to be getting back to how we used to be/smth like that. how much i missed those childhood days with fun and laughter. (: its really important to stay in constant contact and communication with everyone. hmpf. looking back on all the friendships, i've lost contact with many.. and most became normal acquaintances. its sad to realise.

Okay this is an email received from vic. & i think its seriously dumb. HAHAHA.

untitled.

Tue, 08 Jul 2008 08:48:52 GMT

In this world, no one is made perfect, there goes for me..
And thats the spark of life, having to go through obstacles and learn mistakes.
I apologise sincerely for any wrong doings/misunderstanding caused.
But i do cherish all my friendships alot, even if i dont really show it.

Life comprises of trust. No one in this world can be trusted i guess.
Including myself. I'm gullible and not trusting enough.
Sometimes i dont understand myself either..
Hope i'll be able to build up my character as days go by.
Peace out. I still love everyone as they are.
Thats all i have to say.

#@*^#@$

Mon, 07 Jul 2008 13:43:30 GMT

On the verge of just blurting out everything in the meanest way.
Annoyed, pissed, irritated.
I just wana have a peaceful life!
& it really can get very pissing.
Hate me for all you want, i dont give a damn.
ROAR.

/to another:i am NOT trying to gain popularity. i'm sorry if i really got it all wrong. but why would he lie to me?

I'm going green! :)

All the pieces.

Sun, 06 Jul 2008 16:42:49 GMT

Kay, i'm officially gona pick myself up from where i fell.
& stop all the neglection i've given to my studies.
Hahaha. Feeling exhausted now.

Heading to airport tmr to study, woohooo.
The sudden excitement of studying fills me up. Hahaha.
Didnt attend a proper mass today/yesterday, feel super bad.
Saturday was pissed with mum, she simply just loves to accuse.
RAHHHH.

Memories so vivid.

Subjectless.

Fri, 04 Jul 2008 17:31:51 GMT

Randomly bored.

Hahahaha, the eyes close, tongues out with a twist!

Gosh, took quite awhile to draw that.

Rose.

Within every soul there's a rose. The God-like qualities planted in us at birth grow amid the thorns of our faults. Many of us look at ourselves and see only the thorns, the defects. We despair thinking that nothing good could possibly come from us. Therefore, we neglect to water the good within us, and eventually it dies. We never realise our potential. Some people do not see the rose within themselves: Someone lese must show it for them. One of the greatest gifts that a person can possess is being able to reach past the thorns and finds the rose within others.
Do not focus on the thorns, but the rose (:

/i'm aimlessly flowing wherever the wind blows me, in search of an aim..

Recollection.

Thu, 03 Jul 2008 17:39:53 GMT

Two zero zero eight.
Wow. It came to my senses of how things have been actuating.
Six months have actually gone past.
How fleeting my life seem to be, getting through each and every obstacle.
Was having a crave for quotes & i came upon this.

Albert Einstein:
How on earth are you ever going to explain in terms of chemistry and physics so important a biological phenomenon as first love?

A source from somewhere;
No matter if you find a new love. This does not means our new love is not real but the old one does occupies a small place in our hearts.

/i wonder, how you felt for me in just those days.

Summerrrrrrr.

Thu, 03 Jul 2008 07:22:00 GMT

How exhilarating it was even by just seeing you from a distant. (:
/when will you ever learn to cherish people & stop being a phony to everyone? hmmm.

Thoughts all over the world.

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 13:16:47 GMT

Are you a true amigo or a well rehearsed phony?
I really wonder. You can appear to be so real, but the fake side of you was revealed.

Slept at 9 plus yesterday, had a long sleep till morning break.
Supposedly needed to wake up at 12am to complete my amath work.
Anyway, was reviving the past memories yesterday on a phone chat.
How sweet and memorable they were.
What a vivid recollection.
But as said, the past. Hmmmm.

If only the world's always peaceful.
I swear i didnt tell anyone anything. I merely asked one, least did i thought what came out from it was a lie. Is our friendship worth that little to you?

Cold, cold, cold.

Judge.

Mon, 30 Jun 2008 14:19:18 GMT

Read this from Andrea's blog. Judgement.

Firstly, we have no rights to judge others.
Secondly, we ourselves make faults, who are we to judge?
Thirdly, we're not that person, how can we feel what they're thinking? So do not make an assumption.
Lastly, humans have errors and conscience and is no exception if we make a fault. But what matters is the learning process we have towards God. We are flawed by nature so it isnt a lie. So let's try our best to stop that judgement that time will tell.

Not saying i'm perfect, hope i won't judge anyone anymore either.
Now that i know how it feels like.
PHONY.

Didnt go to school today, cause of a few reasons. RAH.

I would run away to paradise.

what a world.

Sun, 29 Jun 2008 11:38:04 GMT

What an injustice world i live in.
With all the superficial things.
Only god knows it all.
No one knows what kind of life i lead.
There's so much hidden things.
With all the advantages taken of me.
Its not easy to deal with.
Perhaps thats why there's so much security i wish to seek.
& it really hurt when you said that of me. i thought you would understand.

/i decided to look up the bible hoping that something will strike me. & it did.
"I saw all deeds that are done under the sun." God knows it all. (:
"and those who increase knowledge increase sorrow." This is apt when i said i wish i could get the bottom of everything. Perhaps not knowing everything is better. Maybe ignorance is bliss(?).

Food for thought.

Sat, 28 Jun 2008 18:48:52 GMT

Backstabbers.
Dear Gail, i guessed what you said was true.
Not really much true friends out there in the world.
But you're one true one to me. (:

What's this world becoming into?

Sigh.

Fri, 27 Jun 2008 08:19:27 GMT

Sometimes my life just seem to have so much suspense and mystery.
Which i really want to get the bottom of it.
But somehow i just couldn't...
Kay, its getting kinda emotional in here. Rah.

Cause i love you way too deep. When i devote myself into something, i really can do anything and keep devoted to it.. But maybe sometimes that doesnt help.

The call.

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 13:03:57 GMT

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry
I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes
You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

This song is just simply awesome. Addicted to it. (:

Its been years since i touched a storybook.
But a book review is needed for english.
So borrowed The Chronicles of Narnia: The Horse and His Boy.
Simply love narnia. Kinda exciting. Hahaha.
Love C.S Lewis man.

How much i miss you by my side.

How i wish.

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 14:25:56 GMT

LIFE IS SUCH A CHORE. ):
& my emotions are super crazy nowadays.
I dont even know who i am anymore.
i hope you're doing fine.

Life is like a rose, it may be beautiful at times but sometimes the torns do hurt.

Yet another term.

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 16:23:26 GMT

New term starts.A bad start though, left my house late.
Then reached school late, just by a few minutes!
Then had to serve detention after school with amanda. Hahah, sorry amanda. =x
Had to write 10 ways to prevent being late.
Anyway school was alright. Felt kinda sleepy though. Just done finish all the homework.
Hmmmmm, what a day.

Had a dream while i napped just now.
And it was kinda cool, cause i dreamt that reko was calling me in my dream.
Then my phone vibrated and i woke up from my dream, and he was really calling me.
Hahahahah.

Kay, nothing much to update. Boring life i have. Haha.

How i wish i could be there for you always. To lift up your burdens, share your sorrows and pain, remove your tiredness. Sigh. I shall do it all in silence instead.

grill me.

Sun, 22 Jun 2008 07:06:18 GMT

Somehow i dont feel happy..
am i not over it, how i wish /:

addicted.

Sat, 21 Jun 2008 18:20:25 GMT

It felt weird but i'll give my heart and soul.
& i'm just one who's so insecure a person.
I'm always searching for security.
A part of me yearns..
BUT, THIS IS LIFE.
I've to constantly remind myself that. Haha. /:

And then, i wonder about your thoughts.

only hope.

Fri, 20 Jun 2008 15:28:42 GMT

Emotionally hit.
I've told myself to devote.
I've told myself to have a new hope.
I've told myself to take things easy.
I'm told to take things step by step.
I've made myself let go of the past.
Maybe i'm too greedy. Is feeling loved too much?
imissy. but i wonder if you do. i dont feel it. at times i look back on the decision. for y i'm willing to let go. i feel. unloved. smth so different from the past. can you hear my cries for you? ):

My greatest fear, is to be alone.

low, low, low.

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 16:30:10 GMT

Kay, i'm really feeling bored.
Watched kungfu panda today, shopped with nana & sasa.
Managed to buy 2 dresses, and heels.
Tuitioned after that, which was quite a interesting talking session.
Feeling pretty low now. Unloved's the word, perhaps.
Will it forever remain this way?
Loveeee.

♥ I've got a pocketful of sunshine. says (12:20 AM):

sianxzxzxz. inspire me

♥ I've got a pocketful of sunshine. says (12:20 AM):

HAHA

Ivan says (12:20 AM):

how to inspire you? haha
♥ I've got a pocketful of sunshine. says (12:20 AM):

hmmm dont know, just try. haha!
Ivan says (12:20 AM):

hmm..
Ivan says (12:21 AM):

*chant* jochy get inspired, jochy get inspired, jochy get inspired! Hugashaga Hugashaga HU!
Ivan says (12:21 AM):
HHAHAHAHA
♥ I've got a pocketful of sunshine. says (12:22 AM):

AHAHAHAHAH, GOOD ONE.
♥ I've got a pocketful of sunshine. says (12:22 AM):

hahaha you're super lame!
Ivan says (12:22 AM):

really? but my feet works fine! hmm...
Ivan says (12:22 AM):

need specs?

Ivan says (12:30 AM):

In a class of geniuses, there was one matchstick..He went for all the competitions like spelling bee and blah blah blah… and he always made it to the top without breaking his cool or felt threatened by the questions.Finally when he went for Who wans to be millionaire and reach the second last question… he died…How?

Ivan says (12:32 AM):
cause he scratched his head

Ivan says (12:32 AM):
HAHAHAHA

Ivan says (12:32 AM):
then then part 2

Ivan says (12:33 AM):
the ambulance came, and revived him. but he got serious injuries on the head and was bandaged up. what did he become?

♥ I've got a pocketful of sunshine. says (12:33 AM):
cotton bud?

Ivan says (12:33 AM):
haha yeah!

With you by my side.

Wed, 18 Jun 2008 03:29:01 GMT

Last night was awesome. Entertainment was the bomb. Hahahaha.
Mass chat with leslie & lennie. They wanted to suan me, end up i'm the one winning.
Hahaha. Damn hilarious.
And leslie told us smth bout Camm.
18 years old to buy durian puffs? HAHAHAHAH, cam you're funny man.

And i found out something damn cool about sweemong.
Hello sweemong if you're reading this. Hahahah. (:
Seriously he can go be a psychologist/mind reader/fortune teller/predictionist(?)
SM's like a freaking cool pyschic. Hahah.

Anyway, had morning call at 10am thats why i'm awake already. Hahaha.
Sweeeeeeet (: Gona play badminton later, after 3493287473 years of not playing.
But damn, i'm having my M. & it hurts man.
Roar the world.

Time boy, time. I dont wish you to see you like this. So grant me that wish.

This boring tuesday.

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 14:21:02 GMT

Treasure these few words.
Forever we're together.
Keep all my love forever.
Until death do us part.
P.S. I love you.

I think this is hilarious. Hahahaha.
Notice the Error:
It says, Please confirm you're a human below. HAHAHA

You're the one who deserves more. I dont deserve your love. There are much better out there for you. I'll always remember you as the one who touched my heart.

Hohooo.

Mon, 16 Jun 2008 16:25:11 GMT

New hope, new start, new beginning.
Cause i can breathe again, dream again.
I'll be on the road again;
Leave the past, cherish the present, anticipate the future.
<3

The long lost feeling.

Sun, 15 Jun 2008 16:22:34 GMT

This is love.
Forever & ever. Amen.
Sunshine. (: